My Feeling
Hi brother! How are you today? Are you alright ? I hope so.  I want to ask you a question: “have you ever felt so terrible or getting bad mood all the time and it makes you not comfortable to do anything. You think that every moment was terrible and useless? Yeah, I myself had ever faced this problem. How to resolve such this problem? I don’t know how to do and what’s better solution to go from this problem. 

Of course I should look for the solution and face it immediately. But it is not as easy as you think to get a better solution and to implement it into my problem. You know, I need motivation, really to support me. I feel no one wants to support me when I’m like in such this situation.

I feel everyone leaves me alone to get my solution by myself. Yeah maybe I have to do this by myself likes crazy boy going somewhere without any plan and target, like something useless no one will care about me who am I. Am I really that bad? I hope not.

What’s going on me? I have to be strong man. Yeah, that is true even if no one cares me, no one understands me who am I. I am sometimes really upset why do not my friends want to be my friends when I am in the hard situation? Am I perfectionist? Am I individualist? I don’t care about that. What I actually need now is helping hand. Sure that is all, my friends. 

I feel like a boring boy who did not know how to do, what should do and everything become very unhappy. I am like a man who lives in the forest which no one, alone, no car, fire, with a dozen wild animals who are ready to eat me whenever. 

Oh God, help me please!. I can’t stand with that condition around me. I swear guys. If I can choose the best thing that I will do is I am going to go away from the crowded activities in the middle city here. I am going to go to the strange mountain which no one hates me, no one cares to me, no one bothers me, no one will destroy my plan, my dream, my soul. 

I will meditate as much as I can over there on the top of mount. I will be closer to God to feel happiness, the real happiness, yeah, real Happiness.  Happiness can not be changed by money. Even though you have a lot of money you could not buy happiness.

I think that yeah, ‘Struggle’ is good word for me, I have to struggle to get the solution. Life is struggle, yes it is true. Struggle for them who wants to be useful man woman in front of human being. Life is not just for eating, drinking, flaying, playing, and no respectful to other. So, I have to do my best for other people. At least give the contribution for better life. If I just stand by myself at home, do not do which able to give beneficial to other, so I’m useless. So, It is important to look for something that can bring you to be beneficial boy to other. 

However, you have to realize that life always changes whether you realize it or not. So, the best thing I should do is that I have to care to other. Help other, share to other, and don’t only stand by or sit down in your room. Go out and look at the situation around you now. Look! What happen out there, so you can feel that you are maybe lucky between them. I should thank to God even if now I feel bad. Yeah always have positive thinking. I hope I can face all my situation today and hopefully will be getting good day again soon. Listen the Audio File